In a recent post, I announced the big news that I was returning to school to seek my associate’s degree in nursing. It has taken practically a miracle to get me back in school, so I decided to share. In this two-part post, I’m going to share why I stopped attending college and why I am going back. This is part 2.
Rewind to about 3 months ago.
I began dreading my job a few months ago, not because it was difficult or stressful, but because I wasn’t being challenged enough. For the past couple of years, I have worked as a pediatric home health nurse and I love it. I work for a great company and I enjoy being able to help children to grow and thrive. Yet, I began to feel as if something was missing.
Looking back, I have had the privilege to work in a variety of health-care settings in some capacity. As a nurse aid, I worked in a hospital and with a hospice/home health company, and as a nurse, I have worked in long-term care facilities, an assisted living, a nursing home, and with the home health company I currently work with. I loved each place I was for a different reason, yet I was the happiest in the hospital. On the medical-surgical floor, I was constantly learning. There was always something to do, something to help with, and something to think about or learn about. I LOVED the hospital setting.
After talking to my husband, I made the decision to go back to school to earn my associate’s degree mainly to be happy with my working conditions. I want to be challenged, to be competent, and to do real (active) work. Working at a nursing home or working in a patients’ home is fine, but I feel that I need to be in the action. Burn-out is a real thing in the healthcare world, and though I am not ever super-busy or stressed at work, I feel exhausted by how boring and hum-drum my current job can be.
What a thing to complain about! I must sound super ungrateful to be complaining that my job is too “boring” or slow-paced. People would kill for a nursing job like that. I mean, I myself at one point yearned for a job like the one I have now. But the fact is that I am constantly changing, like everyone else. My goals are evolving, and I cannot stay where I am right now for too long. Is college the only option I have? Can’t I just find another job? No, college isn’t my only option, but if I want to type of schedule I desire and work in the setting I want, then I know that getting my RN will be one of the few options I have. The fact is that if I want to work only 2 or 3 times a week and I want to work in the hospital setting (and feel competent) then I will need some more schooling.
As I mentioned in Part 1 of this series, I enjoy learning and love school so I am excited to go back. School has always been a haven for me. I am such a nerd, and I admit it! I LOVE learning and the human body mystifies me. While I plan to take it slow so as not to wreak havoc on my personal and spiritual schedule, I hope to be finished with everything within a couple of years. My plan is for 2020 to be the year I finish schooling. For good!
How do you feel about school? Let me know in the comments!